Finding the Joy in Life Again
I honestly would have put money on the fact that this would not have happened today. Big money.
I'm sitting on the bus riding to work, and I realize that I'm pretty happy without a pain-causing personal relationship in my life. That was a wow! moment. I've been separated for about 2 years, and the divorce is in the works, but I would have bet real money I'd feel horrible for the rest of my natural life. But today... on the bus... for a few minutes... I didn't.
That was huge for me. Huge.
Then I'm in work, updating a few postings with the results of the tests I'd done overnight, and I'm back into the swing of posting like I used to. It's been a long two years, but I'm back to writing about what I'm doing, and it's really helping. I'm feeling like I'm enjoying myself again.
This, too, was huge for me.
I don't expect this to last all day... but the fact that I have felt this way tells me that I need to keep doing what I'm doing - keep moving forward, and then maybe this will come again. And maybe when it comes again, it'll last longer. Maybe.