What's it all about, Alfie?

I don't know what's going to happen next year - heck, I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. But I do know that today I'm another year older, and I'm hopefully a little wiser... I think I'm a little more compassionate - after the year I've had, I'd think I bloody well should be... and I certainly wish I was a little more comfortable with where my life is. But I'm working on that.

Certainly, I'm a work in progress, and while that's not the best thing for someone hitting 52, it's better than what it could be. I've had a heck of a year. It's not getting any better, and I have a lot of battles ahead of me still. There's the court appearance in a few weeks, there's the separation of finances, there's being a single parent to a trans gay son, there's the death of my brother-in-law, there's a lot of stuff that's happening in the next month, and I'm not at all sure I'm ready for any of it.

My faith says that I'm not going to be given anything I can't handle. I want to believe that's true, but it's hard to believe that I'm going to be ready for any of this, let alone all of it. But that's really not an issue, either, is it? Because it's going to come, and ready-or-not, I've got to press through all this and get through each day.

The good news is that it's only 5 minutes at a time.

That's how I'm moving forward - just 5 minutes at a time.

Everything else, is in His hands, and I firmly believe that this is my only way through all this. Do my best every day. Take things as they come, and only do what you can do - not what you can't. But only 5 minutes at a time.

I sure hope 2014 is a better year for me. I really do.