What's it all about, Alfie?

I don't claim to know what the future will bring. I'm doing my best to just make it day-to-day most of the time. I'm lucky in that I have a decent job, and it affords me a nice distraction - most of the time. I have a support system that seems to work pretty well, and on the whole, I am making it day-by-day.

I was reading about the Five Stages of Grief and one of the things that really amazed me was that when talking about the final step - Acceptance - "...a gift not afforded to everyone.", it is marked by a withdrawal and calm.

I don't know why I was surprised to read this - I mean, I'm going through a loss, but I expected to "find myself" in one of the previous stages. And to be honest, I think I find moments of anger, or bargaining, from time to time - but I always end it with the resignation that it would never work, and for better or worse, this is my path.

Finding out that not everyone reaches Acceptance was also a bit of a shock - because as they say your life is never the same. Never. It's just a new "normal", and you make new routines, and new paths, and you get on with living.

Anyway... it's another month in the books, and I'm still here.