Accepting That You are Just Exactly Who You Are
One of the things I'm finally coming to terms with is that I am exactly who I am. Sounds silly - but here's the point that brought this up. A very good friend just sent me a link to a place he'd like to spend a long weekend on his next birthday. It's in the Bahamas, and it's a little cottage right on the ocean. It's secluded... it's small... it's beautiful, and it's got an amazing expanse of water to see. I don't think I could imagine a more amazing view - I'm sure they exist, but this was really spectacular.
And yet I know I'm never going there. Not in this lifetime. These last five years have been transformative for me, and I have come to learn things about myself that I was never forced to see, and I pray most people don't have to. But it's also shown me that the thought of a vacation is just relaxing at home. I know it's not what I'm capable of, but it's what I'm capable of enjoying at this point in my life.
Life happens. It changes us. We adapt. We move on, and we try to find the path that we are comfortable walking.