Keep Going… Just Keep Going… and Try to Do Good
These last few weeks have been up and down, and I feel certain that it's going to get a lot worse before it gets any better. My back set me back - a herniated disc - nothing you can help, I do all the stretching and exercises, it's just life. But I was down for a few days last week. I'm on the mend, thanks to this not being the first time it's happened, and in a few weeks I am sure I'll be better. But it's a blow...
I also had a run-in with family this past weekend and while I love to see them, I know that they stiller unhappy with me - kids of divorce are something I'm very familiar with. It is what happens... sides are chosen... blame is assigned... it is what it is, but it also hurts. Again, in a few weeks, this will all be a memory, and things will seem to be back to "normal".
It's really just giving things time to become The Past. I've heard that over and over again in the last few years, and every time I hear it I'm hurt that it's the only thing anyone seems to say, but then 6 months later, I realize that it's the only thing they could say. It's an honest assessment of what happens when people get hurt.
Bones need time to heal. Discs need time to stop swelling. And the heart needs time to let things go. There's no pill to heal a bone... and while the prescription to reduce the swelling on my disc is really useful, I know that given time, it would go down on it's own. It'd just take a lot longer. And when people hurt each other, no words are going to shorten the time it takes to get past it.
I just need to keep going... get up in the morning. Try to do some good in the day. Have a good, healthful, lunch. Walk like you mean it. Get involved in your work, in your life. These don't really make anything better - they just make it a lot easier to pass the time. That's what really needs to happen. But these make the time seem to pass faster.
I just have to keep at it.