Anger in the Workplace
I'll admit to being as passionate as anyone I know about lots of things. I can get upset about things, impassioned by things, and in general the only thing I really try to avoid is not feeling as that is just no fun at all.
Recently, work has become far more confrontational than even I find acceptable. At first, I thought these people would be upset, and then let things die down and get back to the business of doing business. I could not have been more wrong.
I've got people upset at me because I dare to propose that their scheme is not the best solution to the problem... I've got others upset with me because a trader asked to bypass them and deal directly with me... and while I suppose the former is at least partly my fault because I could lie and say they had a good plan, the latter is totally out of my control and yet I'm the target.
I just talked to my only real friend here and he said what I was thinking at that exact same moment - This place is sucking my will to live..
I realize that things aren't great... I know the economy is bad, and I'm willing to deal with the problems associated with this job so long as it's something I can control and have some power to effect. Unfortunately, this place is far more like a small business than anyone here probably realizes. The politics of the "boss' favorite" and the "problem child" are all too clear here. I thought I gave that up when I stopped running my own business. I was wrong... in such a big way.
I'm going to have to try and look past this. Try to look towards something that is interesting, even if it doesn't really have a lot of use to anyone. I need to be able to motivate myself to get up in the morning and come into this place. I know these are my jobs. This is life. But this place certainly makes it a lot harder than I can remember it being for a very, very, long time.