I wish I didn’t care…
Today I got another email from my lawyers about more pre-trial motion paperwork for the divorce. I don't know why this is an ongoing issue, but I have a feeling it's because Liza doesn't like the idea of getting less than she thinks she needs - or deserves. But the interesting thing is that it doesn't matter one little bit. Not one.
My wife of (now) 29 years can choose to divorce me without any consideration or cost to her. She can ditch me like a old shoe. I can't say a thing, I can't stop here in the least. And more importantly, she has the law on her side. There is no financial cost to her of this divorce - she gets awarded money not because she deserves it - but because someone decided that there are sufficient numbers of bad husbands out there that a woman should be able to divorce the worthless slug, and then be granted a portion of his money for the rest of time.
So I get these emails about giving them more financial information, and it just breaks my heart. I hate digging this up, and it makes me about as mad as I can be. But in the end - again - it doesn't matter one whit. The legal system in this state is not about justice and fair, it's about empowerment for women, and while at some level I understand that, I don't see that a judge should not look at the circumstances of the divorce, and say "Hey, you just got tired of this person, so you don't get all you want..."
But as I said... none of this matters at all. And it makes me sick. And I wish I didn't care at all. But it still breaks my heart.