Feeling Oddly Like a Slacker
Had a pretty nice day today... kept very busy, got a lot of things done, but at the end of the day I had a meeting with my new manager and the list of expectations for April are daunting to say the least. Not that it's all that hard - it's just all things that are somewhat out of my control and I have no idea how to do them. For instance, getting machines set up in New York and London. Now, at my old job, I knew all the ins-n-outs of doing this and could get it done with a very predictable timeline. Here? I've no idea how the process works. I know what Liza would say - give it time, it's all part of the learning process. But it doesn't keep me from feeling like a slacker.
I then started to look back at my day - a day that was filled with lots of coding on the web site I'm working on, but all of a sudden it didn't seem like I had actually done all that much. I didn't have a lot more new to show for it, but I know the infrastructure in the web app had to be built and there was a significant amount of work there.
I know it's all just self-doubt. I need to put in the time and keep focused on the day-to-day and let the months take care of themselves. There's no doubt I can get all this, but it's nonetheless a little daunting when faced with it all at once.
I just need to keep my head down and keep working.