{"id":6983,"date":"2013-04-01T03:26:26","date_gmt":"2013-04-01T08:26:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/?p=6983"},"modified":"2013-04-01T03:29:24","modified_gmt":"2013-04-01T08:29:24","slug":"month-three-of-my-most-painful-year","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/archives\/6983","title":{"rendered":"Month Three of My Most Painful Year"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/01\/SadFace.jpg\" alt=\"Sad State of Affairs\" title=\"SadFace.jpg\" border=\"0\" width=\"125\" height=\"125\" style=\"float:right;\" \/><\/p>\n<p>I wish I could write about all this, but it's still just too painful. I'm talking to friends - trying to stay in the here and now, but it's hard to even watch TV. After 27 years, almost <em>everything<\/em> reminds me of Liza - commercials, vacations, work, cars, home, and then there are the times I reach out to her only to be snubbed. It's not a good time for me.<\/p>\n<p>I want to believe that God has a plan for me, but I have no idea what that plan is - other than to just wait for the time being. So I wait. And I hurt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I wish I could write about all this, but it&#8217;s still just too painful. I&#8217;m talking to friends &#8211; trying to stay in the here and now, but it&#8217;s hard to even watch TV. After 27 years, almost everything reminds me of Liza &#8211; commercials, vacations, work, cars, home, and then there are the times [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6983","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-everything-else"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6983","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6983"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6983\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6983"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6983"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bobbeaty.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6983"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}